BDT

i feel slightly suspicious about the sudden rise in benicio del toro's score on the sexwars....

on the other hand...

Tonight I was telling some people about awake dreaming, even though its kind of embarrassing but IDC, and I was like "and it's weird cos we both do THE SAME THING" and they were like it isn't really the same thing if Sophie's awake dream is about riding around Italy on a motorcycle with Benicio del Toro and yours is about you are pregnant and you get stabbed and I was like "IT IS THE SAME THING" at the end everybody gets to be amorous

shitty

today has been really horrible. here is a list:

1. i hate everyone who works at fed ex. i gave the guy the envelope with the address on it and he asks "where is this going?" i don't know, dude, maybe to the address on the packing slip i just gave you??? could that possibly be it????
2. my lips are so chapped and i have NO CHAPSTICK at all. i searched everywhere. i'm so pissed off today
3. the cat has been sleeping on top of a cardboard box that i thought was empty. today when i got home he came to see me at the door, the box slid off of where it was sitting and smashed on the floor. it was a $300 piece of le creuset. SO MAD

other than that, i have been working every day and then going to sleep crazy early. i filed my taxes yesterday and if i get back all the money the lady predicted, i would have enough to go on holiday aka go visit you in london (or we could go somewhere tropical or something)

when you get here i'd like to go to a really fancy dinner as our belated christmas/holiday celebration (and then get wasted)

i've drank too much of this

my hair is dirty

i'm almost at the point in my depression where it's time to get over shit and sort myself out

ALMOST but not quite

i hate dogs

THERE ARE FUCKING DOGS HAVING A DOG FIGHT ON MY STREET I CAN HEAR THEM FOR LIKE 45 MINS NOW WTF WHY DOESN'T SOMEONE MAKE THEM SHUT UP

breakfast

I'm in love with you!

So what?

So what? So plenty! I love you, you belong to me!

No, people don't belong to people

Of course they do!

Nobody's going to put me in a cage

I want to love you!

It's the same thing!

No it's not!